I kept my mouth shut. I tried to bury my head in the sand. I even tried to see their side of things.
Truth is, I am tired of women I don't know speaking on my behalf. You are not me, you have no idea how I feel. You claim to be feminists yet you don't seem to understand what that actually means. It means equality. FOR BOTH SEXES. Not just women. We are human beings, not automatons on the other end of a computer screen. I have a voice. I have an opinion of my own. I don't fucking need yours!
Here is why I am angry.
I am seeing my fellow gamers, both male and female have been attacked for speaking up when they found out their gaming "journalists" are not exactly on the up and up. We found out that if you know the right people, you too can have your game reviewed and mentioned positively. It sort of undermines the entire point of gaming journalists. They are supposed to be there to talk about games and give pros and cons. At least that's what I thought. My bad.
I don't want to give credit to the idiot who started this. But suffice it to say, bad morals and lack of ethics played a big role.
Then the most bizarre thing I have ever seen happened. All the sudden, prominent women in the industry started talking about how they were being threatened and death threats are supposedly being issued. Yet, not once have I heard of these women who fear for their lives going to the police. You better believe that if I get death threats, someone is getting investigated and visited by PD. Just saying.
All the sudden I am hearing the word Feminist being thrown around. And this circus has gotten out of hand. We are asking for transparency in journalism. You are asking for all male gamers to die.
I have even seen this go as far as threatening a 13 yr old kid who didn't agree with someone on twitter. They threatened to release this kids info and harm him. Really??? A thirteen year old boy poses that much of a threat to you? And the people who have started this condone this behavior. Nice.
I am a gamer. Yes, you read that right. I. Am. A. Gamer.
That is a tag I sport proudly. I am not a die hard, in your face, aggressive gamer. I am what you would consider a casual gamer. But I am a gamer. And gamer is a tag that isn't just about white, straight males. It is about a culture of people who love the art.
Here's my story.
My husband and I both grew up playing games, like most people our age. We played differently. I was the first kid on my block with a Nintendo and I loved it. I even learned how to cheat at Duck Hunt early. Don't judge, you did it too. =)
My husband was hard core. Still is. He grew up in the arcade world, you know, this was when parents went out with their kids and let them play games while they shopped. This was before TV became a babysitter. E was that awesome little kid that used video games as a outlet for fun. He was good at them.
By the time we married I was not gaming. In fact, I had lost all interest in it until I saw a commercial for a little game called World of Warcraft. I fell in love. I started playing it a little late but I found it was the common ground E and I had. He will play games for hours on end, and I found this was actually an awesome way to spend time together. Now we play a few games together and I love it.
Here is why this is important.
My husband is a Hispanic male. He is, and has always been, supportive of me playing. He is the first to teach me how to do different things. He is the first to try talking me into new games. He is my biggest fan and champion. But according to all the hate, he is a loser. He is a misogynist. He is not worthy of the same respect as others who support this ridiculous notion of the blasphemy they are calling Feminism.
So here is my point....
You do not speak for me. I support gamers of all races, religions, sexual orientations, and genders! You should not speak on things which you do not understand. Gamers aren't the problem. Being morally and ethically challenged as journalists and human beings is.
How dare you hide behind feminism when you are clearly anything but.
I'm a woman. I'm educated. I'm aware. I am able to stand by my own opinions. I don't need yours. I'm a gamer! #notyourshield #GamerGate